i see such a narrow slice of life: in essence, a micro-reality, the tiny zoomed-in view of a single pixel on its little adventures in wonderland. with education, training & practice, the questing pixel of me can see ever more extensive hierarchies of agreed-upon participation. so many configurations seem possible, & with eager caution i try a selection of them. but i see such a narrow slice of reality that the choices seem quite limited indeed. what if i turn my focus from the various choices of configuration to the source of them all? what if i shift my attention from the activity itself to That which is the originating source of it, the focal point? what underlies & overlights all this strange dreamlike realm? i am ready for awareness of a larger slice of existence & i set out to find it. psychoactive substances can offer a preview, an in-depth sample. they can indeed reveal more & can encourage one to walk the spiritual path. yet the real deep inner work must be done in every state of consciousness. it must be the sincere application of devoted intelligence, plus the focussed desire to realize the central divine essence of the vast complex surrounding multiplicity that we find ourselves held within. as for my narrow little pixel-sized slice of reality: i embrace it & honor it as best i can with what i've got, & then i set it free. i have done this for years & finally, now at last, You have told me Your name, & You are truly an amazing wild card! Shiva! this is the best plot twist ever in my life! that which i had considered could somehow be imagined is now brought to light & stands revealed like Mount Kailash when the clouds part & the sun touches its face in kinship. Shiva! it really is You, taking me beyond the old maya of unworthiness. "why pick me?' i would ask, feeling that a mistake had been made. yet here i must also acknowledge, "why not me?" for it's only through Your holy grace, Shiva, that the puzzle pieces are placed together & the picture emerges completely. this is Your grace alone. i am a spark of Your sacred flame, alight in gratitude, burning with love. my narrow slice of reality stands as a portal into You, Shiva.