dear young friend & family in Shiva, when i speak of age, you seem to hear death, probably because of your youth. but for me at eighty-one, age is a victory, something amazing that is given to me to rejoice in, & i do! you seem to think that i rejoice in the nearness of death, but no! it is this life that i rejoice in. i delight in beauty, goodness & truth. if it doesn't relate to my purpose, i pay no attention to it. my purpose is to celebrate life & to release the outworn, that Shiva & i can commune together more meaningfully. so think not that age means closer to death! age just as vividly can mean closer to life, because i can so fully & deeply enjoy this life now as a seasoned spiritual connoisseur. years of arcane experience now reveal its value to me.