this fragile flower

i will not pluck this fragile flower of the elusive moment.
i will gently touch it just with fingertips alone, barely there.
i will inhale its fragrance deeply (so sweet!), & i will exhale
this body's own scent upon its petals & pistils in return.
i blend with it, become part of it. there is no place where i end
& it begins in the seamless wholeness of now. i gently touch
this moment, breathe into it to release it to float away in
the mingling probability streams that so freely morph & change.

my edges are thinner than ever before. it must happen with
age, this slow disappearing of division & separation.
yes, fingertips alone can truly touch with gentle full respect,
& without coercion or pulling apart. the moment goes, is
now gone to Shiva, who knows well how to cherish oddities &
exceptions such as we who love Him, & we who are born out of
His love through all the cycles of creation & dissolution.
let us adore this fragile flower of the elusive moment.

Your touch

You touch me with a gentle nudge of friendly tenderness,
though You express through the insubstantial & not through flesh.
i feel You nevertheless: Your signature energy, Your
fragrant spiritual love that inspires the best in me.

there is a fountain of light hidden deeply within me.
Your dear presence brings it alive with sparkle & color.
You warm the very center of me with Your touch of fire,
with your inviting calmness & radical acceptance.

there are no gazing eyes, no tempting lips, no shapes or forms.
there is love that feels like ice melting slowly in sunshine,
releasing into light the cold hard form that had seized it.
in Your light, Shiva, edges & borders blur & dissolve.

Your touch is like the delight of a rainbow remembered
for its extraordinary timing & divine glow.
it lives, keeping me company while the fountain of light
at my core explodes like fireworks bursting into flowers.

touch me now

You meet me formlessly as i reach to You inwardly,
shedding the dense outer form, progressively dropping
identifiers until only beingness remains.
i know You in this world by Your energy signature
absorbed in our formless unions, which continue to bless.

You touch me now as i, in my elderhood, freely yield
myself to You who have blessed this life inexplicably,
enduringly, persistently, for i am slow to wake.
You have remained with me throughout my ignorance, Shiva.
You are the one constant in all this shifting flow of life.
i embrace You in deep devotion & dedication.
absolve me of my ignorance, enfold me in Your love.
You meet me formlessly as i reach to You inwardly.