the first thing that i understand clearly from You, Shiva–looking back over the years–is the importance of dwelling on the good, the true & the beautiful. all else is just not relevant to my purpose: aligning my energies with influences that benefit & bless. i had to want to turn away from darkness, bitterness & despair. i had to do it again & again for years, turning away from the old shadows, facing into the light. You kept urging me onward, Shiva, sometimes with gentle sweetness & sometimes with a lashing whip. thank You for being the goldsmith to my jagged lump of grimy gold, melting me down to the bare bones & building me up again, all smooth & shiny to reflect the golden light of Your divine healing love. may this mirror You have made of me dazzle the darkness with Your love. satyam, shivam, sundaram: om namah Shivaya! om haum joom sah!