i need to live with You day & night, my Shiva. i need to wake up & feel You here next to me. i need to say Your name before anything else. i need to walk with You down the long wide hallway & talk with You about things important to me, like kindness, courage, endurance, respect & love. i need to tell You what i learn from the Gita & which part touches me the deepest & the least. i need to show You my favorite old graveyard & how peaceful & beautiful the silence is. i need to walk with You outside in darkest night & contemplate the stars & sing to them with You. I need You to be so profoundly within me that i cannot find who i used to be before You revealed Your identity, my childhood friend. i need You like air, water, sun, food & body. i need to be Your partner, child, servant, vessel. i need to feel You living deep down within me as You look upon the world through my open eyes. i need You like the body needs a beating heart, so come, Shiva, come to me & be the rhythm that sends the life pumping through this ready body, wear me like a second skin, fill me with Your fire!