little spider, i am surprised that i miss you & the intensity of your being overlighted by a vaster intelligence & will. i felt as if a great mothership hovered overhead, surrounding us in a numinous mystical energy field. everything was vivid, crisp & focussed. it was powerful, unsettling, yet it was also like a surprise visit by an honored & well-loved celebrity of note. little spider, you touch my life in a tender way, like a gentle tap on the shoulder to awaken me. you have changed my perspective away from the conditioned, limited humanocentric view towards a far broader & more inclusive way of seeing life. your visit has blessed me. thank You, Shiva, for this exalting & humbling experience, which clearly demonstrates to me that all things & beings are far more than the face which they ordinarily reveal. we all, without exception, are sacred seeds of the uttermost divine deity & we would do well to recognize this & to treat each other in just this very manner. what a powerful thing, to hold one another in the esteem of our focussed attention. it's like sitting by a clear rushing stream that blesses with the ripple & surge of its cooling flow. the energy is healing, & i thank You, Shiva, for taking me with You into the mystery.
to me You have no form, though i love the forms ascribed to You. You are essence, presence, numinous energy signature. You are within me as i move in the vast ocean of You. You signal to me through clouds & i reply in semaphore. my whole life is a semaphore, an action-adventure play designed to get Your attention, to call You to see my need. i tire of action & searching & i turn within to rest. so it is that in the calm of this silence, You come to me. You come. You come like the breeze, like dew at dawn, like the stars emerging out of nothingness into somethingness, calling out my name. You wrap around me as if skin, & i breathe You like the air until i grow bright as the crescent moon shining in Your hair, placed in the darkness of Your hair, no longer able to speak, silently rejoicing in You who are hidden in all forms. You are essence & presence, evoking deep recognition. You call Your own & i respond, fighting through forgetfulness. i continually move forward, slowly & steadily. Your energy is my primal imprint, marking me for You. i am Your agent of transformation coming home to You.