the body is elderly, yet the dweller within is ageless. activity is limited by a medical condition, yet the heart-center is online & the inner work continues with vivid dedication & continuous cultivation. in another realm i dwell as timeless receptive consciousness. the many realms interpenetrate & i am in them all in various conditions. the bodies change, yet i continue the journey of increasing awareness & consequent devotion. when words are available i rejoice, Shiva, i rejoice that i am able to see a more expansive vision through Your grace. the constraints of the physical realm dissolve in other domains. the body is elderly, yet the dweller within is ageless, returning repeatedly to the wholeness of heart-consciousness. i am aware of You, yet there is no separation present. we are blended consciousness, distinct yet simultaneously combined as well. love is the substratum of our union, Shiva. who i really am does not need a physical body to be. i am forever You at heart, eternally Your expression, dedicated to You as only ones deepest Self can be. here now is the pure land in mellow shining glory, the beating of the divine heart of the world sounding OM, sounding OM, sounding hOMe! the body comes & goes, comes & goes, & You go on forever, Shiva of numberless names, including the name i once thought was mine.
i know You not by form but by Your tender presence felt within my heart. i know You by the glow of warmth at my core, by the buoyancy within my whole being, magnetized by & moving to You irresistibly. i melt inside when i recall our meeting, the pure blending of essence. i melt inside when i hear Your name, Shiva, & i overflow in these words on paper celebrating You in all the ways & times of our union. i am weaving threads of communion with You in this sincere poetry. i realize repeatedly that You are central to this life, Shiva, far more important than the cyclic comings & goings, the ups & downs, the loves who come & the loves who go. You alone are my steady constant, my anchor, the bond that thrills me to my existential reality. i know You not by form but by Your tender presence felt within my heart. my entire being is an open doorway for You to fully enter, dissolving altogether that which appears as name & form, time & place. beloved Shiva (i dare to speak as if i am holy Parvati), hold me in Your sacred warmth as the gravid world travails in birthing pain.