i am foolish to speak of You for what can words say of You? i long to commune soul to soul as we did when You first came to me years ago. You ignited the flame of love, made it burn. it has been a beacon throughou the storms & clashes of life. You marked me for Yourself & i also have vowed my service from a deep well of recognition & heartfelt commitment. without You, i am a shadow falling flat upon dark earth. with You, i am sky, galaxies, dimensions beyond telling. i am foolish to speak of You, yet i do this very thing! it is love's nature to be the profoundest of contagions!
i need to live with You day & night, my Shiva. i need to wake up & feel You here next to me. i need to say Your name before anything else. i need to walk with You down the long wide hallway & talk with You about things important to me, like kindness, courage, endurance, respect & love. i need to tell You what i learn from the Gita & which part touches me the deepest & the least. i need to show You my favorite old graveyard & how peaceful & beautiful the silence is. i need to walk with You outside in darkest night & contemplate the stars & sing to them with You. I need You to be so profoundly within me that i cannot find who i used to be before You revealed Your identity, my childhood friend. i need You like air, water, sun, food & body. i need to be Your partner, child, servant, vessel. i need to feel You living deep down within me as You look upon the world through my open eyes. i need You like the body needs a beating heart, so come, Shiva, come to me & be the rhythm that sends the life pumping through this ready body, wear me like a second skin, fill me with Your fire!
my chair cradles & cuddles, easing the body & breath, a molecular lover, vehicle & companion on the journey to Shiva, He to whom i am betrothed. i am urged by the marrow deep within my very bones. He made me. He owns me. He has me now forever. i am made of His substance. i hear His call, i respond. my chair like an animal strains toward Him, wanting Him. everything wants Him now. all else is meaningless, dry, a dream to awaken from. Lord Shiva lives in my heart!