learning – THIS HAPPENED

the body is convinced that it is here to be served. it wants to relax &
be gently, respectfully cared for. the emotions are convinced that feeling
happy & comfortable is most highly desirable to attain &
maintain. the mind is convinced that it is here to take charge of circumstances.

the Self is learning that it is not the body, the emotions or the mind.
the Self is that which remains after all the transitory things & beings
have exhausted their stories & actions. that which yet remains steady has seen
it all come & go, for the Self is the Witness to the rising & falling.

the world no longer intones its low hypnotic & alluring call to draw
me in, or maybe i just no longer pay attention. i'm listening for
Shiva now. He must be near because i can feel the deep pull of His power.
i await the next development in my journey home to Shiva. it will
probably require yet more patience, endurance & alert observation.
i have never yet encountered anything that did not benefit from it.

You blast through my protective wall of words & strip me clean of concepts, removing me from my comfort zone, Shiva! You are revealed to me now, human attachments laid bare, withering in the pure fire of Your seal upon my heart. every happening in this life is a teaching from You. this jiva, a rough piece of rock, is polished to become a shining jewel in the fullness of time & process. love without attachment or expectation is Your gift & i learn, i learn from pain & from delight, i do learn. You blast through my protective wall of words & strip me clean of concepts & guide me toward my holy home, Shiva, where no "i" or "You" remain, only the dancing wholeness.