after i tell You my stories, Shiva -- the old ones, the stories told to me, about me -- they fade away. in their place are the new stories, emerging now that i am ready to receive my true place in this life. the new stories are about You, Shiva, how we met & how You continued coming to me in spite of my blind ignorance & grievous errors of thought. it helps me to live in this world, being aware that You are now, & always have been, central in my life. without knowing Your name i have known Your warm presence & ever sought to be near You in my heart & mind. dear Shiva, i am entirely swept away by You. You cause my heart to open & You bless me with love. in this world of maya i have been given a shield of protection by You & my life is devoted to You & what You may want of me in this dream realm. i do my duty to You here until You take me beyond all the stories, beyond the form, into You.
i wrap you in these words when the cold wind bites through your mask when the rags you wear fall apart when your dark secrets are exposed i wrap you in these words om namah shivaya i rub these words into your skin like rose-scented lotus oil like a warm healing unguent like a gentle angel's touch i rub these words into your skin om namah shivaya i feed these words to you in the emptiness of hunger in the solitude of your night in the depths of your abstraction i feed these words to you om namah shivaya i shine these words into you like sunlight into your shadows like moonlight upon your ocean like the warmth that pulls sprout from seed i shine these words into you om namah shivaya i plant these words in your soul into the nameless they go plunging into the subtle shifting yearning into the moist readiness of now i plant these words in your soul om namah shivaya