i look into your warm dark eyes, my friend & family in Shiva, as you sing that sincere hindustani classical music. it flows out of you like clear streams & tides of pure water & light, nourishing the dry parched & neglected emotions. you bring new life to ancient words & you establish a pathway to the heart, which shivers gladly in response. i focus upon you. i gaze so deeply into your wise knowing eyes that the Self–the atman in me–touches the atman in you, & everything else just falls away, recedes into nothing. i gaze in awe at you, into you, so profoundly that i softly merge with you in a tender burst of happiness down in the heart's depth. you seem to feel it also, for you nod & smile & the joyfulness seems to roll off you like reflected sunlight. it rolls right into my heart. a sweet flow of grace happens spontaneously between our hearts. it is ageless & wordless & it underlies the smooth recurring rhythms of your song. the sound of your singing timelessly enfolds us both: you in india & me here in america. yet there is no space at all between us now. you are right here with me, directly registered in the heart, through the eyes, & through the effulgence of love. i do not belong to myself any more. i never did. clearly, destiny has claimed me now for its own mysterious purposes.
before the pandemic, You inspire me to add an ample image of Your home, Mount Kailash, to the wall above my altar, Shiva. for more than two years now the image graces my room, radiating silent blessings & drawing my gaze upward to ponder its magnetism. oh Shiva, what a seed You have planted in me! it spans dimensions! suddenly Kailash is emerging from its picture high on the wall! i feel the earth trembling in preparation, like the ground underfoot before a train barrels into view far down the track & moving fast. it's huge, massive, yet it opens itself to me as i, too, open to it, & contact is made. Kailash silently enters into me, through & through, in an interpenetrating deep synaptic instant. Kailash fills my room, overflows my heart, stretches my mind wide open! love has found me again! Kailash is a mystery primed to trigger a powerful psychic download. Kailash is a transducer for cosmic power, which is stepped down by the galactic presence to our local representative, the Sun. the Sun then relays it on to Kailash, who holds it for all. Shiva, You are the mobile unit of Kailash, the compelling human face needful to ground the divine presence here. in the end, it all folds up back into itself as the Supreme Source. yet maya's magic mirror multiplies images, & Kailash stands at the head of them all, as a mountain rightfully does. suddenly Kailash has come off the wall & into my heart, carrying the crisp transcendent scent of mountain air & mystery, inviting approach. thank You, Shiva, for bringing me home to meet the cosmic family. i can now fully understand why the sage Lao Tsu wisely says: "without going outside, you may know the whole world. without looking through the window, you may see the ways of heaven." Om Namah Shivaya!