the body is elderly, yet the dweller within is ageless. activity is limited by a medical condition, yet the heart-center is online & the inner work continues with vivid dedication & continuous cultivation. in another realm i dwell as timeless receptive consciousness. the many realms interpenetrate & i am in them all in various conditions. the bodies change, yet i continue the journey of increasing awareness & consequent devotion. when words are available i rejoice, Shiva, i rejoice that i am able to see a more expansive vision through Your grace. the constraints of the physical realm dissolve in other domains. the body is elderly, yet the dweller within is ageless, returning repeatedly to the wholeness of heart-consciousness. i am aware of You, yet there is no separation present. we are blended consciousness, distinct yet simultaneously combined as well. love is the substratum of our union, Shiva. who i really am does not need a physical body to be. i am forever You at heart, eternally Your expression, dedicated to You as only ones deepest Self can be. here now is the pure land in mellow shining glory, the beating of the divine heart of the world sounding OM, sounding OM, sounding hOMe! the body comes & goes, comes & goes, & You go on forever, Shiva of numberless names, including the name i once thought was mine.
this is a global culling event, a time of physical alertness, a time of challenge to compassion. this is a time when the greater good for the greatest number is questioned & ignored by many who value personal will above group service. do You call me to You now, Shiva? am i one of the expendable ones in this intense global culling time? i am old, an economic drain, if the material world counts most. my offered gifts are not tangible, nor do they serve current social needs. Shiva, i am glad You came to me & i will freely return to You whenever You call me to come back. what a drama of the human heart are these times of global suffering! it is no doubt a good time to die, thus i stand with You, at peace myself. the body is all Yours anyway, always has been & always will be. i am content & ready to leave, to return to You who are my source. let be what is needful, use me well! gratitude to You is what remains & in this world, that is sufficient.