i see that maya's way is to draw us into situations whereby strands of our connective energy are hooked & woven into it. many dramas will seek to involve us: family, national, global, plus hidden inner conflicts & struggles when all else is calm. it is unavoidable in the world of form. i notice this strongly now, being elderly & disabled & thus having less abundant energy. each cause that i feel called to champion, every imbalance or injustice i seek to ameliorate draws an energy thread to connect to it. thus i'm woven into the sociocultural web & am supporting its constructs with my prana & focussed intentions. hence i become mindful indeed of where i want my energy to flow. having less available energy, i must put it into what i most prioritize. Shiva, what efficiency You show to demonstrate maya & to teach me to cut the ties to that which serves me not! all that has been generationally established calls urgently for participation. family values, national priorities, social-enculturation: they all sing their majority-approved alluring siren songs. refusal is frowned upon: there is always a price to pay for freedom & mindfulness, yet it becomes necessary in time. You encourage & support awareness, dispassion & kindness, Shiva. Your voice eventually becomes more magnetic & powerful than maya as i travel on this journey with You. even negative events can serve a positive purpose by training the mind to be a detached observer. such clear vision can expand to reveal the pattern that eventually shows itself to be serving growth. understanding this, i no longer turn my back on Your guidance, Shiva. my heart goes out to You, blends with You in fact. all this reduces the attraction of maya. may we choose with care & may we be willing to pay the price of our choice. remaining in thoughtless thrall to maya will exact its own price, even as Shiva extracts His. i choose You, Shiva, & i willingly pay Your price, for maya is but a dream, empty & temporary. You, Shiva, are constant & You touch my heart with Your pure, holy love. i turn my back on the shadow-show of maya to embrace You, Shiva. i rest in You & take refuge.
the body is elderly, yet the dweller within is ageless. activity is limited by a medical condition, yet the heart-center is online & the inner work continues with vivid dedication & continuous cultivation. in another realm i dwell as timeless receptive consciousness. the many realms interpenetrate & i am in them all in various conditions. the bodies change, yet i continue the journey of increasing awareness & consequent devotion. when words are available i rejoice, Shiva, i rejoice that i am able to see a more expansive vision through Your grace. the constraints of the physical realm dissolve in other domains. the body is elderly, yet the dweller within is ageless, returning repeatedly to the wholeness of heart-consciousness. i am aware of You, yet there is no separation present. we are blended consciousness, distinct yet simultaneously combined as well. love is the substratum of our union, Shiva. who i really am does not need a physical body to be. i am forever You at heart, eternally Your expression, dedicated to You as only ones deepest Self can be. here now is the pure land in mellow shining glory, the beating of the divine heart of the world sounding OM, sounding OM, sounding hOMe! the body comes & goes, comes & goes, & You go on forever, Shiva of numberless names, including the name i once thought was mine.
this is a global culling event, a time of physical alertness, a time of challenge to compassion. this is a time when the greater good for the greatest number is questioned & ignored by many who value personal will above group service. do You call me to You now, Shiva? am i one of the expendable ones in this intense global culling time? i am old, an economic drain, if the material world counts most. my offered gifts are not tangible, nor do they serve current social needs. Shiva, i am glad You came to me & i will freely return to You whenever You call me to come back. what a drama of the human heart are these times of global suffering! it is no doubt a good time to die, thus i stand with You, at peace myself. the body is all Yours anyway, always has been & always will be. i am content & ready to leave, to return to You who are my source. let be what is needful, use me well! gratitude to You is what remains & in this world, that is sufficient.