"talk to me," Shiva says, "nothing is too trifling, for I am the essence of everything here. you can talk to me." i hear Him in my heart & i wonder how He can care about such trivia. "try Me," He says, "the open heart knows no trivia." feeling shy, i tell Him what i am doing now, how words reveal themselves for poems, like flowers unfurling petals to the nurture of sunlight, singing in the language of fragrant bright color, a hymn of gratitude, chorus after chorus. "see what I mean?" Shiva says. "nothing is too small to hold the whole of creation at its center. talk to me," He says, "for this too is sadhana." this is why my lips move silently within crowds & why my voice is heard in soft conversation when people are gone, for Shiva is here with me, teaching the art of divine inebriation without concern for the opinions of others. He is right, for all my talking to Him keeps the door of my heart open wide & He enters & we talk together about pebbles & planets. when i can talk no more, He hold me in His heart.
i know You in my tears which flow in happiness from the balm of Your presence, renewing vision. this vision is of the heart open in blessing & these tears are an offering at Your altar. i know You in the blood pulsing through the body, thoroughly pervading everywhere within me. You sing the same salty hymn in my own blood as You sing in the mother, the ocean unbounded. i know You in the sweet morning dew fresh upon the bright flowers nodding gently in the garden. i have seen You winking at me from the rainbows flashing in dewdrops in the early rays of sun. i know You in the soft drip-dropping of the rain as You nourish mineral, plant & animal, journeying all the way up from the wide ocean & down to earth again by devas dressed in clouds. i know You in the stream rushing down the mountain to quench the thirst & guide to fruitful level ground. animals eagerly come to Your banks to drink & many little lives rejoice in Your blessings. i know You in the river in the raging storm, flooding over human structures, washing away the known & certain, casting it aside like straw, reshaping the borders of our crushed illusions. i know You in the ocean, vast, rhythmic, surging in & out swelling, thundering, owning the earth from horizon to horizon, mother of life. i am but a wave in the broad ocean of You. everywhere that i look i see You, i know You! i disappear in the glory of You, Shiva! it seems that i do not exist except as an observer of You, again & again, of You!
what could i possibly write about, think about or do that is not in reality done by You, Lord Shiva? there is nothing else but You, my Lord. all my words are but clouds in the vast sky of You, drifting in the wind of You. out of the light in the eyes of strangers, You can emerge like swift invisible fireworks that light up my shy heart, linking me with You in powerful silent explosion. how can i forget You who dazzle with Your effulgence? the plot of this human story, like walls, encloses me. enforcers on the rooftops of my mind shoot down upon freedom fighters determinedly smuggling contraband thoughts, yet i press forward with them anyway, dodging sniper fire. a fierce joke is this maya, long skirts hiding combat boots! i am laughing & crying, as i also stand apart, while gazing upon this lovely mesmerizing drama, wild compassion overflowing the floodgates of my heart. there is nothing else but You, Shiva. all my words are but clouds in the vast sky of You, drifting in the wind of You.
i thought that i was done, that my dharma was fulfilled, that i could withdraw from climbing yet another hill. You sent me an angel -- You got my full attention. i will not turn away from divine intervention! partners with my angel, we repeat Your holy name. we celebrate You daily, adding fuel to Your flame.
the mountains in morning sun abide, massive, enduring, earth bowing in deep pranam, praying to the golden light in silent rapt communion. trees lift their limbs in worship, mudras of unceasing adoration to radiant giver sun. leaves murmur poems of praise, roots cling in deep earth embrace. the sky extends into space ever open to the sun -- its urgent throbbing presence, its intelligent glory. the sky is the lens of love. things speak continually of this globe of primal fire gliding through clear lambent air. i share their celebration in words like flowers blooming in a high mountain meadow, each petal a namaste to the living light of love.