You came to me softly in the night all those years ago, Your tender comfort wrapping me as completely as a swaddling blanket, from the top of my head to the soles of my feet. i had never felt so loved. You were bodiless, yet Your attraction was strong, like a tractor beam sweetly drawing me in to You. i had called You to me: You may have me completely. i give myself to You fully in service to light. i said that with a thirteen year old's sincerity in a stifling society. i turned my back on that world & i faced toward You, my visitor from another dimensional realm of mystery. alas, Your visit was so fleeting! You stayed but briefly, just to teach me how to make an altar that supported my deepest inner life. after all the detritus & dust has settled, You emerge again to me, in your body of power this time. i am swept up. i am wholly pulled in. i am with You, connected at the heart & by Your name. we are sealed together with Your mantra: om namah Shivaya. initially, You came to me softly in the night, yet now we walk in the light of day in bold unconcern & nonchalance. after all, You do have me completely, while the human world has but a small part. i travel this journey with You, Shiva, swaddled in Your divine name, which surrounds & overlights like the wild charm of Your holy aura.
before the pandemic, You inspire me to add an ample image of Your home, Mount Kailash, to the wall above my altar, Shiva. for more than two years now the image graces my room, radiating silent blessings & drawing my gaze upward to ponder its magnetism. oh Shiva, what a seed You have planted in me! it spans dimensions! suddenly Kailash is emerging from its picture high on the wall! i feel the earth trembling in preparation, like the ground underfoot before a train barrels into view far down the track & moving fast. it's huge, massive, yet it opens itself to me as i, too, open to it, & contact is made. Kailash silently enters into me, through & through, in an interpenetrating deep synaptic instant. Kailash fills my room, overflows my heart, stretches my mind wide open! love has found me again! Kailash is a mystery primed to trigger a powerful psychic download. Kailash is a transducer for cosmic power, which is stepped down by the galactic presence to our local representative, the Sun. the Sun then relays it on to Kailash, who holds it for all. Shiva, You are the mobile unit of Kailash, the compelling human face needful to ground the divine presence here. in the end, it all folds up back into itself as the Supreme Source. yet maya's magic mirror multiplies images, & Kailash stands at the head of them all, as a mountain rightfully does. suddenly Kailash has come off the wall & into my heart, carrying the crisp transcendent scent of mountain air & mystery, inviting approach. thank You, Shiva, for bringing me home to meet the cosmic family. i can now fully understand why the sage Lao Tsu wisely says: "without going outside, you may know the whole world. without looking through the window, you may see the ways of heaven." Om Namah Shivaya!
it happens once that a river bids me to come & lie on its long water-smoothed swathes of stone beach & touch its fossil runes & time-sculpted stone poetry. the wisdom of the heart informs my fingertips & i am enraptured by the river: its limestone bluffs, meandering expanses of tactile river-refined stones. they tell aeonic-long tales of the survival & ascension of creatures from another geological age than this one. they move me to my deepest heart & core. here at the core i find my sincere root connection to this life, this realm wherein i now find this body. it is embedded in the moment just as the fossil beings are embedded in stone. i am not separate from all that surrounds & supports me. i too am an expression of Shiva here. what a grand dance this truly is: the minerals in these bones & the dust on the moon, all one big cosmic event! i tell this to the river as we lie on the stones in the sun, blessed by the touch of warmth right down to our boulders, pebbles & bones. i share my last dream, in which the river blesses me with a stone imprinted with the stylized shape of an eye. this is the potent dream--my invitation--that brings me here today, down the long rough country road to the hidden winding path toward the swift river. this Shiva-blessed river is kin to the great Ganges springing from snow-melt in the far Himalayan heights half a world away. i tell this to the river as we lie side by side in the sun. once again i feel time & space shift & blend inexplicably, a fresh fossil moment showing its story to be seen & known, not hidden any more. we have no secrets, stripped down to essence, to the wholeness of all existence. the river & i, under the sun & sky: we lie together on the bedrock of it all & Shiva holds us in the fullness of His pure eternal love. He is another sun, hidden behind the one we see, concealed within the mystery of the secret chamber within the heart. the river knows this mystery too & is smiling in the way that rivers can: with a thousand thousand bright shining glints of light. now at my feet i see revealed the sacred stone of my deep dream, emerging to be my talisman & companion wherever Shiva sends us, graced with helpful dreams & miracles as we go. this stone is known as "Shiva's eye," a guardian on my altar. the river is the buffalo, the first national river park, protected from development for all its wooded winding length. Shiva holds us close to Him, me & the buffalo river stone. we dream together of lessons learned & goodness to be revealed, & the river flows clear & i rejoice: OM NAMAH SHIVAYA!