adventures – THIS HAPPENED

i see such a narrow slice of life: in essence, a micro-reality,
the tiny zoomed-in view of a single pixel on its little adventures
in wonderland. with education, training & practice, the questing pixel
of me can see ever more extensive hierarchies of agreed-upon
participation. so many configurations seem possible, & with
eager caution i try a selection of them. but i see such a narrow
slice of reality that the choices seem quite limited indeed. what if
i turn my focus from the various choices of configuration to
the source of them all? what if i shift my attention from the activity
itself to That which is the originating source of it, the focal point?
what underlies & overlights all this strange dreamlike realm? i am ready for
awareness of a larger slice of existence & i set out to find it.

psychoactive substances can offer a preview, an in-depth sample. they
can indeed reveal more & can encourage one to walk the spiritual
path. yet the real deep inner work must be done in every state of consciousness.
it must be the sincere application of devoted intelligence, plus
the focussed desire to realize the central divine essence of the vast
complex surrounding multiplicity that we find ourselves held within.
as for my narrow little pixel-sized slice of reality: i embrace
it & honor it as best i can with what i've got, & then i set it free.

i have done this for years & finally, now at last, You have told me Your name,
& You are truly an amazing wild card! Shiva! this is the best plot twist
ever in my life! that which i had considered could somehow be imagined
is now brought to light & stands revealed like Mount Kailash when the clouds part & the
sun touches its face in kinship. Shiva! it really is You, taking me
beyond the old maya of unworthiness. "why pick me?' i would ask, feeling
that a mistake had been made. yet here i must also acknowledge, "why not me?"
for it's only through Your holy grace, Shiva, that the puzzle pieces are placed
together & the picture emerges completely. this is Your grace alone.
i am a spark of Your sacred flame, alight in gratitude, burning with love.
my narrow slice of reality stands as a portal into You, Shiva.

i have seen subtle rainbows hidden in the deep shadows of night. it's as if i am looking into the farthest reaches of space & see others looking back at me, smiling & waving hello. they gently assure that sublime shining wonders are on the rise. they say that the energies within the form have full intention to bless & nurture regardless of my shy, cautious reception. they assure me that i am completely love-immersed, even in harsh circumstances & human neglect & rejection. they say that to exist is amazing & that love does not need a form to express: that love is like gravity, like sun, water. it holds us in close encounter on this planet, preparing us for new adventures in maya, challenging human selfishness with the call to group work & global cooperation. the rainbows of the night shadows are prophets & healers, giving encouragement in the deepest gloom & despair, emissaries of the soothing darkness that Shiva settles over one to promote wise insight. the seed is buried in darkness to grow & send out hands reaching for the light, drinking sunshine with the whole body & rejoicing with no consideration for the shadows of the night to come. Shiva, thank You for the guidance of the inner rainbow, taking its rise in the cultivated heart. even in the disquiet of utmost darkness & disintegration, You are my strength. OM NAMAH SHIVAYA