all at the same time

Shiva, You have given me instructions all these many years, which i
have been slowly guided to piece together meaningfully. i was
so young & ignorant at the beginning, with much to learn & to
integrate. of course, there was & is the continuing pressing need
to mature into my highest potential. it continues to this
day & is still incomplete, yet nonetheless it does provide a sound
foundation. it's more than i had ever hoped for, or dreamed of before.

Shiva, i understand that You are many beings & things, all at
the same time. it is that way in the higher refined dimensions of
existence. You can be God, You can be my cherished inspiration,
companion, teacher, comedian & also my own true divine
identity, all at the same time. the human brain rather struggles
to reconcile that immensity with what we can see around us.

i do struggle to accept that God would come to me. How could i be
so worthy? yet, why not me? why should i condemn myself so quickly?
Shiva keeps on bringing these issues to my attention, showing me
how i limit myself by my own attitudes, encouraging me.

Shiva teaches me that i am none of the things that arise from or
affect the body; that belongs to the personality. i'm not
the body nor the personality. Shiva assures me that i'm
the Life that animates the body, & He has taken me out of
the body to reveal other dimensions of being, all so pure
& beautiful. it changes my life to know of this immensity,
opens me up as if i'm a fresh young flower in morning sunshine.

i can't go back to that outworn way of life that was so defined by
denial. i no longer can stifle the urge to go beyond the
obvious, to climb the mountain, explore the cave, commune with the stars,
seek the ineffable & yearn after the real originating
source of this living, longing totality which reaches out to me.

hence, Shiva, i am Your willing student. i guess that is a bit like
the body's left hand telling the right hand that it is willing to work
with it. the mind is challenged to understand & accept such blended
interconnection. it's best just to allow the mind to rest. Shiva,
You are the One Who is really in charge with Your long game of rising
& falling civilizations. i am but a small part of You, who
has been brought along for the ride & to help. i am teachable &
i am willing. please do continue Your instructions so that i may
be even more effective for You in Your long game, as well as from
day to day. the kali yuga is not going to last forever!

Author: swadharma9

i am 82, living in a nursing home and deepening my spiritual life as is appropriate as one ages. i am a student of the Sanatana Dharma and a devotee of Lord Shiva.

11 thoughts on “all at the same time”

  1. Firstly…love the picture too and not only does it remind me of wonderful Texan cloud formations, but also the unexpected beauty of a shaded sun…that seems to be saying..look and ponder. This was very uplifting for me to read many things all at once and yes..our poor brains do struggle at times to grasp even a fraction of what is going on..what teems with life and change along with us, all around us.

    i do struggle to accept that God would come to me. How could i be
    so worthy? yet, why not me? why should i condemn myself so quickly?

    Oh boy..I have asked those same questions and like you, have come to the same conclusion..Why not me?

    that is a bit like
    the body’s left hand telling the right hand that it is willing to work

    I love this..I feel reading this how silly our constant feeling of separation from the divine, really is.

    Thank you for sharing these thoughts soulkin…they are the perfect thing for me to read today πŸ™πŸ€—β€οΈπŸŒΉ

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    1. i love your response, reflecting such similar human concerns as i find within my own spiritual journey. & im glad that the timing was just right for you today tooπŸ™πŸΌβ€οΈπŸ™πŸΌthank goodness that we can witness for one another that the journey is real & that others are similarly called!πŸ€—πŸŒΉβœ¨πŸ™πŸΌβ€οΈ

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      1. Alhamdulillah how we appeared in each other’s movies πŸ™ and β€œwhy not me?” β€œwhy not you?”… what not them? Hugss πŸ€—πŸŒΉπŸ™

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  2. One more post, transcendental in its beauty along with a truly lovely photo, doubly meaningful because the moon, although in its crescent stage, is also Shivas companion. πŸ™πŸΌπŸ™πŸΌπŸ”±

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