as i age i become more fully aware of the softly binding skein of attachments that surrounds the body-personality & weaves it into the world of having & doing. the requirements, activities, appointments! the expectations, desires, hopes, education & training! lifelong this weaving persists, layer upon layer of entanglements, of outer achievements & awards. i am held & cocooned within the complex itineraries of others, drawing me further & deeper into the world, securing me into the expanding global order. thread by thread & stitch by stitch, i am now cutting through & pulling apart the widespread web of hypnotic ties that urgently seeks to reattach. the sociocultural necessities snort & snuffle restlessly, while i steadfastly turn my back & struggle free; turn my back on them all. ah, but love has caught me up, has charmed & secured me with a holy hand that i cannot deny or flee! love has fixed me in place here & will not let me go. it is more than i am: it is vast, & it is replacing all other attachments with itself. Your universal medicine has found me, Shiva, as i now merge with the many into the sacred One. Your divine love dissolves the ties of the world & it dissolves me also, Shiva, into the great spiritual heart where life always throbs as One, knowing no other, & all pending accounts are paid in full forever.