the wall with no door

finally i find myself here at this wall with no door, looming
before me so high that i cannot see the top. i have explored
in all directions, roaming relentlessly, & each time i have
come to that wall that has no door. no matter where i journey, the
wall stands tall. i think that i take it with me, this towering wall
that is built from a lifetime's conditioning & propaganda.

i am like a turtle, carrying my protection. i can hide
within it & never be caught in the open where danger can
descend swiftly, like a fierce raptor from the clear blue cloudless sky.

cracks now breach the wall & they are spreading, deepening every day.
i can see light shining through the larger cracks & it flickers most
temptingly in a code i'm called to decipher. in this way, the
wall becomes my teacher, inviting me to heightened awareness.

hence, a wall can make a prison or a fortress, depending on
the point of view. for now, i am simply relieved to discern this
wall & to know that it will crumble & fall when Shiva sees that
the time is ripe for it. until then, please forgive me for all that
i have left unsaid & for all that i cannot unsay today.

Author: swadharma9

i am 82, living in a nursing home and deepening my spiritual life as is appropriate as one ages. i am a student of the Sanatana Dharma and a devotee of Lord Shiva.

12 thoughts on “the wall with no door”

  1. We constantly build walls, to keep others out… this also keeps truth out. And if truth inspite of us makes cracks, we fearfully fill them in. Sometimes we are not satisfied, unless we build the wall all around us… but an enclosure that traps only what we seek to know, only condemns us to ignorance…!

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  2. Oh J. this wall metaphor (like the shell of a turtle<< love this!) touches on the profound truth of our lives..The crumbling wall, minds me of our musical prophet, Leonard Cohen, when he says,
    โ€œThere is a crack in everything, thatโ€™s how the light gets inโ€ and how we need that light, really, much more, especially in the final blind curves of Life's journey…than the protective and insulating wall. My soulkind…this is so deeply beautiful…as well as your gorgeous portrait!! Thank you for sharing you thoughts with us all ๐Ÿ™โค๏ธ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿฆ‹๐ŸŽˆ๐Ÿฆ‹

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    1. oh goody, you quoted leonard cohen, my fav! an especially juicy & apt quote tooโค๏ธ๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผthanks for all that you say: itโ€™s truly appreciated. it feels good to be seen.๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ

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  3. Love your wall analogy. The whole image is so vivid and so true…we build so many walls in our life time, so many blocks. Thanks for yet another beautiful post.๐Ÿ™๐Ÿผ๐Ÿ’ž๐ŸŒบ๐Ÿ˜Š

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