even though i seem to be identified with the functioning of the mind, even though i fall short in many ways & at times grope blindly in darkness, even though i frequently sink into a bleak forgetting & yearn for help, You do not abandon me & You stand ever-present in the heart's viewpoint. You do not abandon me because You are the very source of who i am. only the mind cares about abandonment & measuring up to ideals. only the mind compares & judges, approves & condemns & sets stern values. only the mind can turn away from You, lost in the transient storms of thought, yet You are always available to the call of the sincere open heart. You are available, Shiva, always standing nearby, ever supporting. i know this as i become aware of the entrapment of the agile mind & therefore i persevere in remaining steady, grateful for Your presence. this small passing mote of human dust gives thanks to You, the divine source of dust & bright stars & swirling galaxies, coming to me in a way i can grasp. i salute You, Shiva, & rejoice in Your pure light & Your deep mystery.