ah Shiva! You often urge me to greater skill & patience, to develop abilities & to ask more of myself. You push me from my resting place like a fledgling from the nest & i feel like i am falling, yet i find that i can fly. Shiva! You will not take no for an answer though i try. You will not let me quit nor run away. there is no retreat. i cry, i sigh, i hide my face, i crawl beneath my blanket, yet nonetheless i must emerge when the new day calls me forth & i must push consciously against the current obstacle. You give me this task to do & though i sag beneath the weight, i will continue on for You have chosen me to do this & thus i will though it is hard, for i know i grow from it. ah Shiva! You often urge me to greater skill & patience. i know that blessing emerges from this because it comes from You, who help me spread wide my ragged wings to lift into the sky.