i don't know why You want me here. i don't know if what i do is what You actually want from me. i only know that You want me, for You branded that deep within my innermost wordless true self. hence all my actions are given to You in hope that i offer that which is needful as You call on me now to act in the world. i use what You give. You give it to be applied on Your behalf. in the end, at the completion, i only return what is Yours. that You want me, this i do know & nothing else really matters.