now i know which things keep me from You: warmth of hot showers, food i prefer, wanting other people to like me. i am very happy to get them & quite unhappy in their absence. by wanting some things & not others i chop my life into bits & pieces & i lose You in the confusion. i will make You the strong thread that all the bits & pieces are strung upon. I will give You the complete garland because i want You the most, Shiva! without You my whole life is empty.