a girl who is me at age fourteen begins to awaken from sleep. she is taken on a journey -- there is movement toward a being. there is awareness & consciousness, there is You, a beacon calling in timeless, spaceless, placeless flow. steadily i am pulled toward You. You are all there is to me now -- You are a magnet, i am iron. i come to You, ever closer. this awareness is filling me up! approaching You, converging now, we blend into no me & no You, just endless Being remaining, & completeness, all-embracing love. only belonging exists now & grand radiant goodness & love. there is no "i" within that realm, yet i am there forever it seems. i still remain there, even now, so deeply am i touched, implanted, marked by Your love & pure presence. in my elderhood in this earth realm i see what a treasure You gave & celebrate Your light gratefully. You are the gardener of my soul & i am blooming for You, Shiva!